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We are supposed to get a snow storm tonight so it may be another Saturday of going into work a bit late after they get the road cleared. Honestly, I hope we just don't get snow as it was really scary to drive down a few of the roads last Saturday.

I'm going to start a new character in WoW, I think, and actually play slowly and read all of the quest text. I've really never paid attention to the storylines and I think I'm missing out on half of the fun and awesomeness of the game.

Also been doing A LOT of writing lately and I'm really happy with it. So. Yay.

I found a Karito Kids doll at Tuesday Morning thanks to info from the people over on daily_doll! Our Tuesday Morning finally opened back up after renovation. They only had two of the Karito dolls but forunately one was the exact one I wanted... Pita! And for only $30 as opposed to the usual $100.

I really like her but I wish she was more a standard size so clothes were available for her. I also thought that Karito dolls were all hard-bodied and she is actually soft-bodied, which I prefer. The Karito dolls are very nice and a super deal at that Tuesday Morning price. I have not read the book yet but I'll do that tonight and see if it stands up to the AG books at all.

I am very annoyed at the county clerk's office for not accepting Visa cards so I had to pay $100 more of my license plate and title fees out of my checking account and now pray I don't overdraft before I get paid on Friday because the closest branch of my bank is in Tennesse. Okay... how do they not take Visa?! I mean, it's the most common type of credit card!

Then I slept far too much of the afternoon thanks to a bottle of delicious pink champagne. Now I'm working on writing. I'm still trying to do something with Virgil and Sebastian and I'm very happy with it but I have a few other ideas nagging at the back of my mind. I think I am just going to stomp those down for now and press forward.

I'm not planning on doing anything tomorrow but lying in bed, writing, and otherwise enjoying myslf. Yes.

So today I am trying out all of the new Windows Live programs… including Writer for blog posts and Windows Live Mail.  So far… really liking them.  The only problem for LJ is that it doesn’t have options for icons, tags, security, etc.  So, ultimately, Semagic is probably still a better choice but that hasn’t been updated in forever and this is a nicer interface.

Windows Live Mail on the other hand is awesome.  It finally inspired me to tidy but my Gmail and purge 3 years of communication with my ex, which is something I have desperately needed to do for a few months now.

I had another great performance review today at work and got back some really good customer satisfaction surveys.  And I get to sleep in on Saturdays and Sundays. :D

So after a morning of frustrating pointlessness and spending the very last of my money on bloody car taxes I decided to crawl into bed and do nothing but play WoW for the rest of the day...

And it's Tuesday maintenance day.

I'm going to try and be productive and work on my novel until 2 when the servers come back up. Oh, and janecpb I'm playing Horde on SC pretty much all the time now. I have a 20 paladin and a 10 warrior. I have your priest of my f-list. :D

At the advice of several, including the parents, am starting on a brand new story with brand new characters today. When it comes to the old ones, I'm ready to move on. They aren't.

Also, pretty sure I'm coming down with something again. Which is what I get for working in an office with 100+ people.

OH! Downloaded Opera browser for my crackberry and mobile web browsing quirks are finally resolved! Including my inability to access LJ at all from it! WOO.

I've been doing a whole lot of writing lately, finally turning an old two-person writing project into a solo project. So far it's going extremely well, actually better than expected. BUT, I've hit a bit of a roadblock in terms of some character development with one of my three main characters. I thought I would pose some of it to my f-list since I know you are all big time readers and writers yourselves.

Basically, I have a character who essentially got 'orphaned' in the transition from two person project to solo story. (I actually have two but one of them was easier to transition. He is a more 'normal' character in that there are multiple ways I can see his personality developing as long as he was raised by nice people with liberal sensibilities.) The other one, however, is being tricky. In his original version he was the son of one of the most important characters my ex wrote. He inherited a great deal from his father and many of his flaws and problems were directly related to the story revolving around his one parent. I'm having a difficult time tossing him into a Catholic orphanage, a traditional family, or anything else and having his personality be believable.

For NUMEROUS reasons this character cannot have a parent or a back-story that resembles his old one. In short, I cannot rename his father and just run with it, or give him a mother instead of a father and give her a similar story. (Importantly here I don't want to give him a creepy relationship with a mother. Far too many of my characters have this and I'm sick of it. It's not something I want for this one.) Honestly, there would be intellectual property rights issues involved if I ever want to do anything with the finished product. Here is what I've done with it so far...

This character was original the son of a dark and sophisticated fellow who had telepathic powers and was a teacher. That last think was absolutely central to his character. My character was taught to use his own mental powers by his father and he also inherited tastes in style, some similar speech patterns, and a certain family legacy that had a lot of baggage with it. I already know that as far as mental powers go, my character is going to have to be self-taught now and have some problems related to that. That's workable. In my version of the story the psionic aspect is much less developed and there aren't any 'teachers.'

I suppose my question is how does my character seem like he was raised by Stephen Quinn without having been raised by Stephen Quinn? I know there's the easy cop-out of just never mentioning anything from his past but that limits what I can write about and still leaves him attached to an old project between a pair of people who utterly detest one another now. I just can't picture my fellow with a normal family and it makes me sad to think of him with any other father besides the one he's so attached to and still adores. I don't want to give up and start a new project just because of this, though it looks like it might have to go that way. I want to be able to work with my characters who I love but without awful memories and associations. My ex had to do this after she got out of a long relationship with another person so I can do it to!

Any ideas for a childhood for a blindly self-centered, psionic elitist, alcoholic, greedy, moral relativist, with a love for the finer things in life and an odd obsession with facial hair?

Dammit dammit dammit... I just cried on my mom's shoulder for about 30 minutes about my ex-relationship. I've looked down on people how do that since I saw a high school girl do it when I walked by her when I was in middle school and spent close to an hour being highly amused by her failure at life.

So, in short, I fail at life.

I have allowed myself to have emotions and, for that, I deserve what I get.

Stoicism. Stoicism. That is the only reliable thing in life.

I decided to switch up my Twitter so:

1.  It's not under the name of a character I no longer write due to drama.
2.  It's under my actual e-mail address again.

Twitter was the only thing I had left as a remainder of that stuff.

I /think/ I got all of you who have Twitter followed, but if I don't just comment.

The new one is @masonpinstripe

I worked 12 hours on Saturday which actually wasn't that bad on Saturday... but the day after.  Oofda.

Time for shrimp and broccoli, then bed!

Am actually feeling better about stuff, so.  Yeah.

Go family and friends for being really supportive during nervous breakdown-type things that happened to me.  Was a really bad and sketchy time.  Managed to get back to work today after two days of being way too messed up to get out of bed, and actually did really good.  It helped that it was a slow night.

Actually got some Christmas presents too.  First, I got a new 18" doll.  I actually didn't get one from AG but I got a Gotz doll of the same size.  She has the same body but different face and hair type.  I'm /very/ pleased with her and am going to be buying her various AG items from various collections.  She also cost me about $50 less than an AG doll so much better for my current budget and leaving more for outfits and accessories.  She still needs a name though.  I'm going to get pictures of her up on janecpb 's community soon.

I also got surprised with one of these.  *dies of speechless happiness*  The Whig and I are HARDCORE into Harry Potter right now so SQUEE!  I always liked HP but now I'm understanding the obsession.  I'm really craving a Slytherin tie, sweater, and robe to round out the look.

I do have work tomorrow but it will probably be a pretty slow day and comes with holiday pay. :D

Hey Everyone,

I've decided that I'm not going to be updating this journal anymore.

I've basically realized about myself that I'm not okay mentally and have probably never been.  I need some time to myself to work on these issues if they are possible to resolve.

Thanks.

-Meg.

He's been denied his revenge. He's being hunted by an unknown but extremely powerful force. And his maybe-boyfriend keeps explaining how Makari are singularly equipped to kill Cambiare.



Adorable to some.  Stupid to others.  In possession of a sad and pathetic little life, according to Hugo.  And, now, bloody pissed off. Frederico - 2010.

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I wonder what it says about me that I identify so much with Edith Bouvier Beale? (As in Little Edie.) I just love her so and can so see myself going there.

Also, the original Grey Gardens documentary on Netflix instant is win!

ETA: Okay, people, when did I reach that age where my co-workers start telling me I need to have a baby? I've never run into this before. Perhaps this is another testament to how much I need to go through with a sex change. A very nice female co-worker turns to me and says something about how it's a wonderful experience and it's so sad I haven't had children... and I blink a lot and feel very confused. She automatically assumed I wanted children and when I explained that I would rather skin myself alive than carry and give birth to a child she looked at me like I was an alien. I mean, she had sympathy for me and I'm all, "Sympathy? Wah? Why? You feel sorry for me because I haven't done something I have not intention of ever doing?"

I was actually one of the older people in my training class too, which was a totally new experience for me. I'm used to being the baby in everything... all through school, my last job, etc. Now I'm middle-aged at the office. I get approached by all of these girls with little children who are younger than me! When did that happen?! (And, yes, I called them girls.)

Women confused the snot out of me.

I think it's time I actually played a Horde character in WoW. Gonna roll one on Scarlet Crusade tonight. Then I have to go to bed because of work tomorrow.

Also, have a bad cold. Suckage.

OMG LOVING THE NEW WOW PATCH!

They finally put Quest Helper in the game and I got the Mobile Authenticator for my iPhone so I have the new Core Hound Pup pet! I'm also continuing to love Staark, my Draenei Warrior.

Is SNOWED here last night!

Wow. It's been years since I've seen real snow.

...And Dark Knight Armory seems to have just put up a bunch of new LARP throwing knife related products. I think I'll probably get Freddy a real holder for Christmas. I'm extremely tempted by the weighted but still all-foam knives in many different styles but I lose an average of 2 an event an at $9 each that's just not practical no matter how much he might like them.

Tomorrow is the last day of training at work... then I'm a for real tech support person!

ZOMG the name 'Frederico' is not taken on either World of Warcraft server I play on.

What are the chances of that. ZOMG.

ETA: I LOVE lady Tauren!

Meme from optimus_life :

Who sleeps in bed next to you?
No one, really. I have an Ugly Doll named Mr. Swirly-Head

What did you last eat?
Thanksgiving leftovers

What kind of books do you read?
Fiction, history books, fantasy

If you could be anywhere right now, where would it be?
Back in Norway, most likely. It was such a terrific country.

What's really creepy?
Anything dead and decaying. Creeepy.

Name one odd item within five feet of you.
Odd item? There's a tarantula...

What's your current fandom / obsession / addiction?
I'm really into Dan Brown's Robert Langdon novels (Angels and Demons, The Da Vinci Code, and The Lost Symbol) as a fandom right now

What did you really want to do today that you didn't?
See the A Christmas Carol movie. Maybe I'll go tomorrow.

What are you most excited for?
LARP next year

What websites do you always visit when you go on line?
LJ, Warcraft official site, Netflix, YouTube, Angry Video Game Nerd, Twitter

What was the last thing you bought?
New headphones for my iPhone

If you could have any pet, what would it be?
Some Lovebirds

Your past life: Tell me about it.
Honesty, I have a few too many to go into in detail here. I was in the Catholic Church once, though, and it was almost as creepy as the documentary I'm watching right now about priests abusing children. Aside from the whole abusing children thing.

What do you want right this minute, off the top of your head?
Brie cheese.

Where is the place you like to return to in order to calm down / relax / etc.?
A favorite book... or maybe playing an old Playstation One game.

How many licks does it take to get to the Tootsie Roll centre of a Tootsie Pop?
I tried to count once as a kid. I always give up and chew them.

What's something you'd like to say to someone right now?
QUIT TEXTING ME. ZOMG.

Are there any bits of childhood that you miss?
I think I was much more creative then. I miss that.

Say something to the person who tagged you.
Hi! Yay for memes!